Chaotic: The behavior of systems that follow deterministic laws but appear random and unpredictable. Chaotic systems are very sensitive to initial conditions; small changes in those conditions can lead to quite different outcomes.
Although I don't always go to church, I feel that I am truly spiritual and a Christian. I think that God has always had a plan for me and my life. While His plan will work its way through me, His gift of independent thought and freewill allow me to alter that plan as I go through life.
I started this post a week or so ago. How quickly life can change. (continuing Jan 3, 2010)
My husband's nephew passed away this past weekend! Just as we were hoping to have a less chaotic year something huge throws it all in a spin again! I'm trying hard to understand why this happens and while I don't give up on my beliefs, there are those times when it just doesn't make sense and I want to scream at the top of my lungs, "ARE YOU SERIOUSLY KIDDING ME!?!?!"
Then as I'm contemplating this question, I get many people reaching out that either I don't hear from often or really never had a relationship with and they share something with me that shows me there is a direction and a path to follow. Why life takes such unbelievably harsh turns, I don't know. But I'm going to once again trust that there is a point and that when my time comes it will have all mattered.
Rest in Peace, Dean ... and Pat, Tom, Dad, Rudy, etc .....