Number 9 ... Number 9 .... Number 9

"Everyone of them knew that as time went by they'd
Get a little bit older and a little bit slower but... " (a line from Beatles' Revolution #9)


My husband and I have lost many dear loved ones in the years ending in '9'. Scott's Dad died in 1969, my Dad in 1979, Scott's brother, Tom, in 1989 and then his sister, Pat, this year in 2009.

So I've decided 2009 is a year I'm good with saying good-bye to.

I have not lived this year well. I have become lazy in many aspects of my life.

Physically, I've done less than nothing to stay in shape and as the year ends, I feel like a woman who is 10 years older than I did just 2-3 years ago.

Socially, I haven't kept very good contact with dear friends. This has been an easy thing to rationalize as EVERYONE is SOOO busy with their kids, jobs, families, volunteer work, etc. But honestly, to me there has never been more important than my connection to girlfriends. And, yet, somehow it is the first thing I neglect when other "more important" things arise.

At my job, well, I feel like this was a year that I was not at my best either. Some of this was not entirely my doing, but it was a year of reorganizing our department and coming up with our best strategy moving forward. It left me feeling like I wasn't working my hardest and a little empty inside.

As a Mom, I have been short-tempered and not present. My son has tested me in more ways than I care to admit, but in reality, he's just being a teen. My eleven year old is starting to show signs of the dreaded teen years, but yet, she remains a constant "best friend" to me when I need her the most. In all, when I look in on both of them asleep in their beds at night, they remind me of what a wonderful life I do have.

With that said, 2010 is going to be a year of great things for me! I will get off my sorry ass both literally and figuratively and work to make this one of the best years ever! I will make certain resolutions but they will only involve the relationships I care most about; my husband, my kids, my dear friends and family .... but most of all MYSELF! I think this past year has given me the "Revelation" that I am the person who makes all the world happy for ME!